At the beginning of each year, I always wonder how my year will turn out. At the end of the year I assess whether the year has been overall good or bad. I am quite happy to say that I am kissing 2013 goodbye with no regrets or a backward glance. It was not a great year for me for many reasons; primarily health reasons colored my year to a dull gray. Do I see any light when I look backward through the tunnel of 2013 ? Not much. I did leave with some life lessons. Here are some that will hopefully make me a better person for the coming year ahead by making these changes:
1) I will try not to be judgmental. My honesty may be too hard on others. I have a tendency to lose friends by being too honest and too judgmental. They may not want advice even when they think they need it. So advice, warranted or unwarranted, will be doled out in very small doses in this year.
2) I have to learn to spot the jealous tendencies in people before it becomes dangerous and stay away from those who tend to have negative feelings about me. Negative energy from others is incredibly destructive and when I see it or spot it, I must run! Once again, telling those who are exhibiting certain negative emotions that will affect our relationship does not help. They will deny it and make me think I am hormonal. I have had this happen many times. Hormones have been made the scapegoat for many a problem between friends. It’s not their flaw necessarily, but my hormones.
3) I will channel my artistic creativity to the max. I want to paint, draw, go on photo adventures with my new camera and write write write until there are no words left (as if that could ever happen) !!!! Creativity is the one thing that takes me away from all the pain and struggle that comes into my life.
4) I want to keep learning as many things that will make my mind grow. I want to be a human sponge. I want to be the sponge that keeps soaking up information and be the go-to-girl for others about technology. I am proud to be a geek, an artistic geek, but a geek nevertheless.
5) I want to become a healthier person overall by improving my diet, exercising in a variety of ways and just making my body stronger. Continue reading A New Year, A New Me
When you talk about serendipity or a premonition or a calling you would probably say this dream of mine would be the closest to that experience. I dreamed of a beautiful place surrounded by water all around the village. The water was swirling, powerful and fast, but oh so blue and beautiful. It called to me to cross. Then I saw the bridge, almost the kind you see in rainforests, not too sturdy, yet a bridge that would lead me to bounteous spiritual enlightenment and a journey that would have an ending that can only be coined a beginning. The bridge seemed so very treacherous for someone so very uncoordinated. Yet, I knew I had to cross it, since beyond the bridge I saw this incredible monastery sitting high up on a steep hill. The climb would be arduous, maybe even dangerous or long, but I knew that at the end I would be enveloped by a cloak of peace. I needed to get to the top and I needed to do it soon. It called to me like nothing ever did.
And then I woke up. The frustration took over. How would I ever find this beautiful place of my dreams? I had no idea how to even look for it. There may be hundreds of monasteries around the world situated on hilltops. I went about my day and I thought to myself like I always do, “if it’s meant to be it will happen and I will find this place. It may take me time, but I will find it”. Yet, I had nothing to work with, no names, no places, no clue as to where it could be.
Then I went on facebook and went to a friend’s page to view her pictures. This friend of mine is as spiritual as I am and as fond of traveling. I saw her profile picture and cover picture and saw something that vaguely reminded me of an image in my dream. I went to that particular album of Paro, Bhutan. And there it was. The monastery. High on a hilltop, stunning and glorious. I went and searched other pictures and I saw the bridge that I had envisioned, the donkeys I had seen crossing up the steep incline and slopes of the narrow mountain paths and I felt as if I had been validated. I realized, I had dreamed this dream for a reason. I needed to go there, make it my life’s goal to travel one day to this beautiful place. It called to me, like no other place has called to me before. So I must set upon myself to make this journey happen soon.